突然发现你把他照片放上去了，唉，忍了N久没从我电脑上把它翻出来看，结果冤家路窄，在你这里看到了

thank you,cyn. thank you so much.I've never thought of making any decision.But my action,led by subconsciousness,already on its way to the designation.
All is just like fairy tale,all seems like impossible.Though we always say: impossible is nothing,the stake is so big.Now,the only decision in my mind is:devote all I have to catch the light of hope,but deep in mind I should be prepared to face the reality.What's more,he is part of my life,but not whole.The reason I am is not only him,but also you guys.You are all my reasons.At last,I have to say,I really,love him,at least till now.